the modern town hardly knows silence

what really matters

What is Success?
To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; To appreciate beauty; To find the best in others; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived;
This is to have succeeded.
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

you know, i simply cannot understand people

so, i've got some painting ideas :)
i'm excited.
i haven't drawn in a very very long time.
we shall see how it goes.

this great society is going s m a s h

here we are.
here we are.
we are anticipating.
there it is!
there it is!
that's the picture.
you see it for yourself.
there it is.
it's a man.
there it is.
with ahhhh

siddhartha

" when someone is seeking, it happens quite easily that he only sees the thing that he is seeking; that he is unable to find anything, unable to absorb anything, because he is only thinking of the thing he is seeking, because he has a goal, because he is obsessed with his goal. seeking means: to have a goal; but finding means: to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal."

"wisdom is not communicable. the wisdom which a wise man tries to communicate always sounds foolish."

" in every truth the opposite is equally true."

"never is a man wholly a saint or a sinner. this only seems so because we suffer the illusion that time is something real. time is not real, govinda. i have realized this repeatedly. and if time is not real, then the dividing line that seems to lie between this world and eternity, between suffering and bliss, between good and evil, is also an illusion."

"it seems to me that everything that exists is good-death as well as life, sin as well as holiness, wisdom as well as folly. everything is necessary, everything needs only my agreement, my assent, my loving understanding; then all is well with me and nothing can harm me."

"words do not express thoughts very well. they always become a little different immediately they are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish. and yet it also pleases me and seems right that what is of value and wisdom to one man seems nonsense to another."

VOID

struggling to fill it

cowboy nightmare

so i spent the last 13 hours walking around.
i volunteered at stagecoach in order to get free coachella tickets.
sean and i had the job of holding a sign that read "need an answer. ask me."
this day turned out to be a nightmare, yet entertaining at the same time.
cowboys left and right.
they loved sean.
grabbed his ass, pinched his nipples, took photos with him.
they were so homophobic yet made gay gestures.
they were complete assholes.
we had questions from "would you consider anal sex?" to "do you deep throat?"
to "what is the meaning of life?" to "why is the sky blue?" to "ask me about my weiner"???
it was definitely an experience.
13 hours of walking.
wowwwww.
we became zombies.
the sad thing is, we could have totally left, yet we were so honest that we actually did our job.
it was a love/hate kind of relationship.
hahahahhahahahhaa!
all we could do was laugh at the situation.
people are quite interesting and i still do not understand people whatsoever.

tired soul

Get to me and turn me well, I'm a tired soul
I was told desire had a sell by date
Well it's rotted and altered, but still remains
Climbs the promise of no real change
I didn't know you would last this long
I didn't think I would last this long
No vacuum is now, and here we are
Did it hate to last and here we are
You squeezed my heart so tight tonight
You must return it before you leave
Cause when you get to me, when you get to me,
When you get to me, you turn me well
Get to me and turn me well, I'm a tired soul

smells like content

expectation leads to disappointment.
if you don't expect something big, huge, and exciting.
you usually, uhm.
i don't know, you just notice, yah.

best weekend of my life

so this weekend was the infamous C O A C H E L L A fest!
it rocked my damn world.
flying lotus is a musical genius.
lcd sound system was bomb dig.
thom yorke put me in a trance.
orbital sent me to space.
tiesto made me dance like a nutcase.
infected mushroom was insane.
passion pit was ohh la la.
kaskade was magical.
bassnectar got down with the dirty beats.

nothing short of amazing!
best coachella yet.
music is oh so beautiful.
it makes the world a better place :)))
thank you coachella!
i lurve you <3

you can't do anything else but g r o o v e to this song

night falls

dub up in mah ears

ESKMO rocked my world last night.
i felt vibrations fueling through my body.
there was a point where all i could feel were vibrations.
the entire inside of the building was shaking.
the ground was shivering.
it was a moment where you could literally feel the music through you.
i was in outer space.

beauty everywhere

unicorns really do exist!