alarms awaken me to reality

and it happens again.
mornings where you do not want to wake up.
you want to continue sleeping and dreaming.
because in sleep and in dreams is the only place you want to be.
being awakened by an alarm clock to reality is shitty.
reality that its gone.
why is it that we feel so alone when we dont have a romantic relationship with another?
we still have love from family and friends.
but we strive for this other love.
yet there shouldnt be a difference in love.
our world and minds are fucked up.
if only it wouldnt be so hard.
im going to miss you.