a friend said it best

needs.
we crave to fill our needs.
i am so tired of bullshit small talk crap with people i know, yet i dont know.
whats the point? "hi, hows it going? hows work? where do you work?"
blah blah blah.
shut up and save me now!!!
i live for the moments i share with those that know me best and actually truly care about me.
i am picky when it comes to choosing friends.
and i see why, because all my close friends are there for me all the time.
they try to open their minds and accept me for me.
i dont care that i have few friends because those i do have i will have always.
i love you guys!!!
i also live for those special moments with myself.
this past year was a hard one, but it was a wonderful one.
i grew to know myself so much more. i lost many many people. good people. but through that loss i gained spiritual time with me.
i know me better.
i can be alone and love it. i live for those moments at night where im just alone in bed staring at my multi-colored filled window and my cat beside me of course. and in that moment i am completely and utterly content.
so here is to 2009! the year of growing and learning and becoming myself.